Lifestyle Change

   So last week I joined a gym. Yep. The move I've made a few times, and stuck with for about 30 seconds. But I really like this gym. I actually ENJOY going. Weird huh? I don't always enjoy the nasty sweaty people working out next to me, or the fact that frankly some people just plain stink. But I like the individual attention I get from not only my personal trainer but the rest of the staff as well. Plus I have a routine structured just for me, and it is things that I really enjoy!
   I really can't be sure that I am seeing a difference in clothing or anything, and I couldn't really tell you how much I weight (even if I knew I wouldn't tell you!) but hopefully I can start seeing results soon. I should get Steve to take some "before" photos so that once I am at my goal I can post the difference. I really feel like this time will be different. My main struggle is diet. I am good when it comes to eating dinner, but the rest of the day is hard....I just don't know what to eat so I usually don't...which has to stop. On the up side.....NO soda. Strictly water! Which is helpful. 
  Now you may ask "Why now?" or "What has caused this attitude?". And I will tell you! I've had a couple of scares the past few months. Namely, I would be trying to do something as simple as stand up, or even just be at church, but not having eaten since the night before. So a good 12-13 hours of just water, and sometimes fruit or crackers but def no breakfast and usually no lunch. Anyways, I was really shaky, light headed and weak. My head was pounding and I just couldn't get up. I was talking to my RS pres at church (who is diabetic) and she said that was how she felt sometimes. Now being overweight and already knowing that my body was insulin resistant (in other words borderline diabetic) I just felt like "Oh no, my body is starting to really have problems....." and it scared me. 
   I do have to loose weight to have kids. That is a big reason too. But thinking of how I could be diabetic the rest of my life, or have heart problems really started to hit home. And I thought about how I need to raise my kids in a healthy home. And in order to do that, I have to be healthy! And therefore there is A LOT I need to learn. Soooo...I started with something that I knew had to change...my activity level. Which before last week was pretty non-exsistant! Embarrassing, but true. How could I have kids when some days I don't even want to get out of bed to feed myself and go outside from some Vitamin D?
   Things aren't going to be easy. I really love my chocolate and sweets. And most of the recipes I know and love....terrible for you! So forcing myself to breakfast and lunch is a first step. With it being summer here, my snacks haven't been chips, cookies and crackers but rather grapes (!!!! <3), pears, cherries, cantaloupe and the like. But when colder weather comes again, I don't know what I am going to do as all my lovely fruit is going to be out of season! I am still doing good about lean meats in small portions and lots of veggies. I love my steamed broccoli but still miss it with butter sauce! :( 
   I am hoping by my birthday I will have lost at least 5 kgs (roughly 10lbs). I would class that as a huge step in the right direction, and a huge success! Esp with me now working in a restaurant that has some of my most favorite dishes on offer! Hopefully I can resist the french  fries, the oreos, and of course my biggest nemesis chocolate ice cream!