Babies, Babies, Babies!!

I don't know what is in the water, but I must not be partaking! I found out that a few people I used to know are expecting a child this year....and as much as I want to be happy for these people that I barely talk to anymore...I can't help but feel a tinge of jealousy.  Steve and I really want to have a baby this year...and we have really started thinking about it since we got our own place....no avail yet...and I am worried that with my past womanly problems that it might not be so easy. I am slowly realizing that this road isn't going to be a walk in the park like it is for some people. I want to have a family more than anything and I want that family with Steve...and I know he wants those same things. What if we can't have kids? How would we ever afford adoption? or IVF? or any of those other expensive treatments? What if I am meant to never have children? I can't help but have these worries in the back of mind. I think maybe these past year and the year to come are meant to teach me patience...patience in getting a house of our own, patience in hearing back from immigration, patience in having a child...because once I have a child Heaven knows I am gonna need all the patience of Job. :) Nonetheless, there are times when I forget that maybe this is a lesson and wallow for a bit in my own pity...I can''t help it! I am human! But I am trying and I am trying to be less stressed about the whole situation as I have read that doesn't help matters. I guess all I can do is try and remember that this too shall pass.